Rewind

It’s been a tough day. One of those days you’d like to rewind.

If I could rewind – I’d change my behaviour, I’d control my emotions and allow myself time. Because its now evening – and the things that I was so distraught over … they seem small.

I don’t want to victimise myself because I was doing that all afternoon. I think its important sometimes to remember that often, the reason why we have bad days – is not because of what happens to us – but more due to how we feel or how we react when they happen.

This afternoon, in the midst of it all, I was angry at the situation, the people, the mistakes – the things that were ruining my day. Now when I replay it – I realise that had I behaved a little differently in a few different moments – the day could have been redeemed, gone more smoothly and relationships less fractured.

Hindsight is a wonderful thing. But hindsight is an uncomfortable thing. I don’t like what it does to me. Hindsight nearly always highlights my weaknesses.

Today’s weaknesses:

Overreacting over miscommunication
Blending old ‘frustrations’ with current mistake
Working myself up into a stress
Sulking and then getting off

The key thing for me now is realising that no matter what the mistake was all intentions were good. No one was out to get me. No one was trying to make my day difficult.

So yeah – – it was my reaction that really ruined my day.

How do you find a pleasure when you’re feeling this upset at yourself? You think hard.

Today’s Tiny Pleasure
I sang. Out loud. With others. An old song that I haven’t sung in years – and one that means a lot to me. How often do we do this?